As I am typing this blog post, Michael Buble’s song “The Best Is Yet To Come” is playing on Pandora.com. That is the perfect way to describe the way I feel on the morning of the first day of my third trimester.
The past couple weeks, I have been pretty stressed. With nesting and work and traveling, I hate leaving the house if I haven’t done something productive, be it cleaning, organizing, making lists, etc. I have to accomplish at least one thing for Heidi each day, even if it’s as simple as pulling some of her new clothes out of their packaging and throwing them in the hamper in her closet. As I’m going about all this, I begin to think about what’s ahead. I get nervous about labor, delivery, bringing her home, etc. It all seems to be looming now that I have a mere 12 weeks (or less…or more!) until she makes her arrival. It’s the type of nervousness that is mixed with a little dread and a little fear, knowing some new and tough things are ahead, and they are coming full-speed.
But this past weekend, the excitement has surfaced. And by excitement, I mean this breathless, happy, CANNOTWAIT feeling that makes me feel like labor will be a piece of cake. I don’t care what I have to do to get her here; I just want her HERE. Saturday night, I was at my sister’s (Heidi’s Aunt Jenn) house for my nephew’s high school graduation. I was watching Austin with all his friends; watching Jenn and her friends talk about their kids; watching the little kiddos running around, drawing on the driveway (and their faces) with sidewalk chalk. Once it got dark and the stars were out and my sister’s huge fire pit was lit, I was sitting on their patio couch with my feet up in front of the fire. Jenn walked over to sit with me, placing her hands on my belly. She has wanted to feel Heidi kick so bad and hasn’t gotten lucky. After what felt like forever, Heidi gave a strong shove, and Jenn’s face LIT up. “I FELT IT!” she squeeled. My heart melted. And I wanted to thank my little girl for making Aunt Jenn smile SO big. It was a special moment that I wrote down in my baby journal.
Yesterday, Cody said he had been daydreaming about having breakfast with Heidi the morning of her wedding and dropping her off at the church to get ready on his motorcycle. (HAHA…you like how he slipped that in there? Guess we’re getting a Harley…). It was the sweetest thing because I saw in his face what I’ve been feeling. We love her so much but can’t tell her or hug her or show her yet.
And last night, at midnight when I went to bed, I MISSED Heidi. I wanted her here so bad, I could have cried. Even now as I write about it, my chest feels a little heavy…in a good, joyful way. With all the flurry of excitement and to-do lists and work and chores to do before she gets here, the best IS yet to come. And it can’t come soon enough.
“Out of the tree of life, I just picked me a plum;
You came along and everything started to hum.
Still, it’s a real good bet that the best is yet to come.
The best is yet to come and won’t that be fine?
You think you’ve seen the sun but you ain’t seen it shine…”
16 thoughts on “Third trimester jitters…”
Oh Jamie! I cannot wait to meet Heidi either! I love to hear how excited you are 🙂 You will be so blessed by her!
Thanks Andrea!! Can’t wait to share some of the joys with you too, friend! 🙂
aw, very nice Jamie.
Thanks Mom/Grandma. 🙂
Love you (as always) and Heidi (as ever).
Me and my girl love you too, Laurabug. *hearts*
Aww… Jamie! You had tears in my eyes! I remember that time so fondly and you are right it won’t matter what it takes to get her here because as soon as you hold her you will forget it all.
The other night the girls and I broke out the video camera and were watching the old tapes that I had made of them when they were babies and it made me so happy and tearful all at the same time. And some of the things seemed so silly, like I video taped 20 minutes of Hannah sucking on a popsicle with Jamie when she was around 9 months old, but it seemed adorable at the time and as silly as it sounds it is STILL adorable and I watched all 20 minutes! Our love for our babies is sometimes so overwhelming but it is always so wonderful! I can’t wait to meet baby Heidi!
Aw, Ash, that is so sweet. I hope I capture little moments like too that might not seem like a big deal but later will make me super happy. *love* WE NEED A CAMCORDER!! 🙂
And I need to see you sometime in my life too. Haha. Play dates, maybe?
ummm…. duh! Playdates are a must! But I don’t really want to wait until Heidi can play…. so can WE have a playdate??? haha! I miss you!
Yes, a grownup play date! I am so into that…
Oh Jamers – reading this makes ME giddy FOR you!!!! Thank you for sharing your heart in such a beautiful way. I love you and am so excited to meet your princess… countdown! 12(ish) weeks and counting!!! *joy*
AW, thanks love! I love you too!! I can’t wait for you to meet my princess also! When I get antsy for her to come, I just think about how FAST Olivia has grown and I calm down a little, haha. 🙂
So I just found your blog a couple weeks ago and I love it! You have made the whole pregnancy thing funny, touching, you name it! I can’t wait until I have one of my own. I’m glad everything is going well for you!
Stacey, THANK YOU! You’re so sweet, I’m glad you like reading it. You will LOVE being pregnant when it’s your turn. I hope it is as easy for you as it’s been for me. 🙂
Wow Jamie! I am so excited for you! It sounds like Heidi is going to be so terribly loved! You are going to be such a wonderful mom! Heidi is going to be so stinkin’ lucky! I hope I am as lucky and am able to meet her one day! : ) Love ya dear!
Aw thanks Megan!!! 🙂 I hope you get to meet her sometime too. Love you too!