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copier's broken…again

God is full of beauty and love and purpose and peace and meaning.  Ok. Got it.

So…my question is, how do I access that in an office where I only have one window right above my head, I don’t feel like I know what I’m doing half the time, I feel a bit/okLOT inadequate, and I’m up to my elbows in office supplies?

Sometimes I wonder…whattheheckamIdoing? I hate it when I do that because it makes me doubt everything…is God listening? Does He care? Is anything in my life significant right now? DID I order more copy paper or did I remember wrong???? *bitesnails* Where’s the adventure in that?!?!

But last night, my dear friend Vicki said something that really stuck out to me. It wasn’t super profound…in fact, I have heard it hundreds of times in my life. “God is in control.” It was refreshing to hear her say it with such conviction because I haven’t heard it in awhile, at least, in reference to a specific situation attached to real worries and anxieties. As soon as the words left her mouth, I relaxed. And realized…it’s TRUE.

In a world where crap (and worse!) happens, God IS in control. He doesn’t MAKE these bad things happen. Bad things are a result of a broken world filled with people who have the freedom to choose right or wrong and too often are hardwired to choose wrong. He doesn’t stand idley by as we suffer and wander about in a world that crashes in on us quite often. He’s there. He’s available. And He’s ready to take any situation and flip it on its end to show that, “See? I am God, I’m here, I got you.” I have seen it happen, and I know you have too.

I just have to remember all that and not get caught up in myself…what am I doing?! What am I NOT doing?! Am I doing ok?! (I’m a spaz, what can I say?). God just urges us to face Him, consider Him. Because despite ourselves…despite the job we hate, the roommate we can’t stand, the boy who doesn’t like us back, the tragedy that was so unfair, the insecurities and fears…our hope rests in something else. And it’s MUCH bigger than our issues.

So I will go back to my job. I will keep an eye out for open doors, I will breath in the fresh air of windows He props open for me, I will take tiny opportunities as they come and trust. Because HE is the adventure. I mean…I didn’t know I would be married until about two months before I actually did! THAT’S adventure! That means ANYTHING can happen at any point that I never expected…and that I will absolutely end up loving.

In the meantime, I’m gonna go fix the copier.

Rouse yourself up and look to God. Build your hope on Him. No matter if there are a hundred and one things that press, resolutely exclude them all and look to Him.
-Oswald Chambers

Isaiah 45 (The Message)
 God, Creator of the heavens—
   he is, remember, God.
Maker of earth—
   he put it on its foundations, built it from scratch.
He didn’t go to all that trouble
   to just leave it empty, nothing in it.
   He made it to be lived in.
   This God says: “I am God,
   the one and only.
I don’t just talk to myself
   or mumble under my breath.
I never told Jacob,
   ‘Seek me in emptiness, in dark nothingness.’
I am God. I work out in the open,
   saying what’s right, setting things right.
So gather around, come on in,
   all you refugees and castoffs.
They don’t seem to know much, do they—
   those who carry around their no-god blocks of wood,
   praying for help to a dead stick?
So tell me what you think. Look at the evidence.
   Put your heads together. Make your case.
Who told you, and a long time ago, what’s going on here?
   Who made sense of things for you?
Wasn’t I the one? God?
   It had to be me. I’m the only God there is—
The only God who does things right
   and knows how to help.
So turn to me and be helped—saved!—
   everyone, whoever and wherever you are.
I am God,
   the only God there is, the one and only.
I promise in my own name:
   Every word out of my mouth does what it says.
   I never take back what I say.
Everyone is going to end up kneeling before me.
   Everyone is going to end up saying of me,
   ‘Yes! Salvation and strength are in God!'”
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7 thoughts on “copier's broken…again

  1. Well, you said:

    “In a world where crap (and worse!) happens, God IS in control. He doesn’t MAKE these bad things happen. Bad things are a result of a broken world filled with people who have the freedom to choose right or wrong and too often are hardwired to choose wrong. He doesn’t stand idley by as we suffer and wander about in a world that crashes in on us quite often. He’s there. He’s available. And He’s ready to take any situation and flip it on its end to show that, “See? I am God, I’m here, I got you.” I have seen it happen, and I know you have too.”

    How do you know it’s God that’s flipping these things around? You said that God doesn’t make the bad things happen. Well I’m just saying it might be possible he’s not making the good things happen either.

    Things just . . . happen!

  2. Oh, gotcha. I wasn’t sure what you were referring to. I see what you are saying.

    I suppose it’s a matter of faith then, yes? I can’t prove to you God is real. But based on the implications of many things, I have reached the conclusion I believe He is real. I do think things just happen to a point, like you said. But for example: my friend who got in a lawnmower accident…he was on a hill, it flipped over on him, crushed his spine and burned 1/3 of his body…and his young wife and three year old daughter are taking care of him still, five months later, and learning how to live with a paraplegic father/husband. I don’t think God made that happen, but I do know that because of God they have the hope and patience and endurance not to get totally lost in the despair of the situation. His wife admits it is painstaking sometimes, and they still grieve the loss of parts of their lives, but because of their church, they have support, meals, money for everything they need. Because of what the Bible promises, they keep the hope that God is using the accident to shape them. They’ll be the first to tell you that they’ve learned how much BETTER they can love others now because of being through something like this. He even said he wouldn’t trade the use of his legs for what he has learned; that’s the depth to which he has grown. Life is richer now. Harder, but richer.

    So I wouldn’t necessarily say God MADE something GOOD just happen after that accident, but He has brought about good from it because of His nature and His word.

    *shrugs* just some thoughts. Hope they make sense.

  3. They definitely make sense.

    I completely understand how some people need to feel a higher power in their life to give them strength through troubled times.

    Me, personally, I can make it with just the help of my friends. I give myself patience and endurance without the need to bring religion into it.

    I don’t think there’s anything wrong with needing a higher power to get through hard times, I just have a problem with people using the name of God to kill and start wars.

    Just some thoughts. 🙂

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